so, we recently had some excitement in the henigin household. on sunday, i was having braxton-hicks contractions and just felt "off." monday, i had some pain and felt even more "off" (which takes practice at distinguishing since my whole life is usually lived a bit "off"!). so, i called my dr. and made an appointment to go in to just check things out.
they put me on a monitor and, sure enough, my contractions started getting worse - and, yes, i do mean to use the word "worse." everything you have heard about childbirth is apparently true, and here i was just at the beginning getting a practice run! the dr. sent me over to the hospital where they continued monitoring me - with pain meds - hurray for pain meds! :)
after a few hours, they determined that i was, indeed, in latent labor (which seems to be pre-early labor). talk about a shock! granted, after several more hours, the labor did stop, but that is not what this blog is about. this blog is about the emotions that we were going through during this time.
for the previous three months, we have been terrified that the little ninja bug would come waaaaaaayyyyyyy too early. it has been very scary. then, as things settled down and began to look great, we settled down, as well. i then hit the time of pregnancy called, "wish this were over and the baby would just get here." not fun, let me tell you. your big, your heavy, your bulky and you waddle. yes, i definitely waddle.
suddenly, however, monday happened. that introduced an entirely new emotion - OH MY STINKING GOSH, THIS MIGHT REALLY HAPPEN AND WE COULD HAVE A BABY TODAY. after being afraid that she would come too early, then settling in, then wanting her to get here so that i could quit being pregnant, i was now terrified that she might actually show up.
here's the thing, though...if she comes, she comes. as my neighbor pointed out yesterday, "y'all have come too far now!" so, even though i'm scared out of my mind, guess what, people?
THIS TRAIN HAS LEFT THE STATION!